threshhold

The last three times in a row that we've gone running I've been able to make an entire circuit of the Oosterpark without stopping. I used to have to stop 4-5 times, for water or just a breather. The first time I did it, last Wednesday, had been at the end of a rather horrible day. I'd had a horrible, nausea-inducing headache all day which had prevented me from getting any work done, Joel and I had been bickering all day, and when we went out to run I was so peeved at him that all that was running through my head was that I wanted to prove to him that I was not a worthless wimp, and that if he wanted to go out running, run I would and I wasn't going to give him any excuse for casting it up to me that I always keep stopping to walk and breaking his rhythm (NB: Not that he ever does anyway, except the one time when it was really hot and he said he found it difficult to keep stopping and starting). Anyway, whatever the misguided reason, it seems to have broken through some mental block ("I can't ever do that!") and I was pleased when two days later I was able to repeat the feat. When I was able to do it again today I figured it's better than chance. Now that I've done it, I don't have any good excuse for not doing it again each time. I even made it 3/4 of the way around the second time without stopping today. I've finally made it through one of the mental barriers and clearly the physical one is no longer there either. It's very satisfying.

I feel like half the internet is down

All day now I haven't been able to get to the OED, GalaxyZoo, or the pics of my niece and nephew due to server time out errors. Annoying.